She is pregnant, due in August and she didn’t even bother to call once, this was just a mild discomfort or nag at the back of my mind – We were like that in some ways – close very close but at times aloof… … BUT Swati shed light on it in a very different way!! She has not contacted me because her marriage is not really working out. Which is a high possibility the way she was. I am in a catch 22 situation, If I call her she will be devastated because being close to me makes her face the truth, truth might be something she is not ready to handle right now.
I can just pray and remember how we were 20 years ago, I was 15, she 16 both of us were coping with a loss of a parent, trying to define the ethics which will shape the rest of our lives. We succeeded, we succeeded in ways unimagined by both of us then…
She became one of the youngest and highest paid woman executives of the country for one of the biggest name in the industry, I, I learned the value of being happy!
BUT some how she couldn’t ever get her “men” right and she would then hide from me for long periods of time. I waited… She always said that she hid from me because she knew I would disapprove, I never asked – then why? Looking back may be I should have…
This time it felt that everything was indeed going her way, my last meeting with her few months after her wedding indicated some adjustment problems, nothing serious. In her last conversation she had said that she is leaving everything here in India and going to Australia to live with her husband, said she just wanted to be his wife… …
She was like that … …