A prayer and a desire

Dil me sanam ki soorat
Aakhon me aashiqui de
Mere khuda mujhe tu
Ek aur zindagi de

Kaise karoon mohabbat
Do din ki zindagi me
Yeh din to beet jayenge
Yuhi hasi hasi me

Jee bharke pyaar karloon
Aisi mujhe khushi de
Mere khuda mujhe tu
Ek aur zindagi de

Sau saal tak sanam ki
Aakhon me doob jaoon
Sau saal aur ho to
Usko gale lagaoon

Sau saal phir milan ki
Duniya nayi nayi de
Mere khuda mujhe tu
Ek aur zindagi de

–Kaifi Aazmi

Ten years is a long time…. Ten years married to the same person seems longer!!! No, am wrong again. I still distinctly remember this day 10 years ago and each of the happenings as if it was yesterday, oh well almost…

That said I would like to share another secret, marriages don’t just last, you have to work hard for it and we are no exception. Being so strong willed and independent as we are, there are bound to be clashes, we knew that from the beginning though perhaps we did not realize that there will be moments so agonizing that we would wish that we can’t go on like this, but on the flip side 10 years ago we thought that the fire would be by a warm glow of contentment – that has not happened either, the fire continues to burn just as passionately so much so that people say it is embarrassing for them at times 😀

But if someone were to ask, have we matured in 10 years of our marriage? I would reply with an emphatic Yes!! We are a very close knit team whose strength is not unquestioning faith BUT unfettered communication, not combination of skills BUT complimenting of skills, not just love BUT also trust.

Then there is parenthood adding a whole new dimension to the array and equation. Aasim is a reflection of what we are and in many ways a mirror for us, he is ours but still not – we are just taking care, nurturing him for his world.

Yet 10 years are too short a time and that is why like the poet, I plead to God to grant me another life(time) so that I may love my beloved as much as I want to…